GROUND TO AIR Why is it the days spit discontent despite all the years? How long will a man cry disconnect to spite what he is? Bitter knees tempting pride, static shapes through blurry sight. How many good thoughts does it take to pacify time? Is it alright to become made self by design? Blistered hands trying might, static shapes through blurry sight. Can it be that by wishing something dead makes it closer to gone? Do you think that by living with regret helps keep what was lost? Fevered mouth open wide, static shapes through blurry sight. Ground to air, and we are relatively sane tonight. Ground to air, all we are is relatively sane tonight. Two walking in a row toward the sea. One covered overhead, one to the knee. Waiting under, can no longer see. Crashing over, on top of me. Wading, waves are fighting. I've been always waiting for the goodbye. LONE MIND DON'T WAIT Demeanor like in mourning, an impressive display. Live alone, gone the pressure. The lone mind don't wait. Sitting long with denial. Sitting long with the blame. In companion to sorrow. The lone mind don't wait. Company made distraction. Unforeseen regret. Interrupting intention. The lone mind don't wait. Don't breathe too soon. JESUS Say goodbye to warnings and be what you become. Lonely lives are waiting 'til lonely lives are done. Can you hear the cries poor Jesus? All they want is for you to have eternal feeling. And you to suffer for them all. How can be forgiven? Living for to die. And all along it's stealing moments from your lives. Can you hear my voice like it's all been told? Can you taste my love when you drink my blood? Makes intoxicate. Voice of reason fades. Let go of the thought and belief that I'm the only one. IN THE SPIRIT OF SELF SUFFICIENCY Hide behind the window when it falls. Act like you're asleep for when she calls. I think I need to be neutered again. The white noise against the perfect sin. Don't bother to lock the door when you come home. I need to know what was still is my own. Falling asleep but acting awake. I wouldn't want you to live for my sake. And my own lips sewn shut. Bleeding on into my mouth. IF / THEN See into delay. Time it always moves too slow to catch the words between. It's an honor said, as he goes without you. Movements blur into the scene. Fell into the sway of falling sleep used to slow the progress of the machine. Listen wide awake as the memories start to make sounds obscene. If now is to betray what constitutes you, then what good is memory? This angle of view makes a mandatory choice. Before becomes soon and does destroy. FOR NO EARS BUT OUR OWN When I began to realize their plans I had won at their game of charades. And I used to keep what you gave to me but now I cannot afford the pain. When will I see it again? I cannot afford the pain. AT LONG LAST The past has passed, at long last. Don't make easy being what I'm sorry for. I watched a lie become reprise. My will don't wane with the change of seasons anymore. She shined a light on his face. TO NO AVAIL Live alone awaiting feelings, a severe case of apathy. Lying down and waiting for my love, I wonder what is on TV. I don't have too many friends tonight. Oh, if only words could speak. Show me anything I turn away 'cause it just don't interest me. Waiting evermore. Feeling so forlorn. Still it moves along. FOOLISH NATURE I find it easy to be low. Moved by a certain thing I cannot say. Something you'll never know. I find it easy to be true. Like roots beneath a tree, unwavering. Unmoved by ridicule. Like Hegel said about tragedy: It's not between right and wrong, but right and right. The trouble's in the deed. So I won't be misunderstood I'll take what I say, and stab it deep inside of you. Keep all your failures close at hand. Don't push them aside. If you're happy then there's something you don't understand. I watch the steam rise from your words. Swirling around my head, in my lungs, they choke, they pain, they burn. I don't like this foolish nature. I want to be here so I can leave here. ANOTHER'S MAZE You're finding beauty in a maze. Changing direction all the time. It is an answer to the boredom. Not finding the end is like an aphrodisiac. He loves you more when you ignore him. The time of day means nothing still. Too bad he don't see things your way. You probably like it better this way. Felo de se to kill the tension. Better days dissolved in milk. Swallowed with every intention to keep her with him always still. Caught by another's face. IN IT'S OWN RIGHT Goodbye weighs hard on my hello. Made just right 'cause sometimes it feels just like I know something you don't. Despite all your surprise, I won't be what I'm not. And endure reprise. And now know not to let it all aside. In its own right, undefined. Led low, lead mindset. SEETHING Seething, I evolve. Into one, untoward. Learning all along that I don't belong. Sitting on the sun trying to get warm. Lamenting's all wrong. Anatomy of a memory. Who am I to disagree? It's in the way, time. SAME WATERS TWICE Right in, this time. Never the same waters twice. Still life, for once. Any kind of change will bring desire. Like someone there told you. Like someone before you makes an onward virtue take a downward form.